Checks and Balances

I kind of just realized that God has instilled in me a lot of things that are constantly, so to speak, "keeping me in check."

I dont have any specific examples, but always growing up and even up still, I have not ever been really really good at one thing. I'm alright at somethings, maybe better then alright at a few things, and really really sucky at many things. And its true, i cannot deny it. Sure, every once in a while it can get a little frustrating, but I have come to accept it. I pick things up pretty darn slowly, so finding patience for myself was something I have had to do for a while. Still finding myself caught up in the mindset that I am not as good at somethings as I want to be or "getting it" as quickly as I want to be, is humbling in itself.

It is on a daily basis where I notice that in the back of my mind there is temptation for pride (conceit, self-praise...whatever you wish to call it) to leak in, and wait for itself to cultivate. By God's grace (which is sort of perlexing to say here), it is either by consiousness of it or by God's interference of it, that traces of "pride" get disproved pretty quickly. Mind you, when I'm being too oblivious to notice and God decides to step in, being disproved of any reason to be prideful is never too fun. But really, I am greatful that He inserts these little checks and balances into me...and even still right now, I am humbled by the realization of his constant interventions being such a big part of who I am.

Being constantly reminded that I have no reason to be conceitful of anything turns out to be a blessing because everything I do and everything I am has nothing to do with my efforts to propel me there, but only by God's grace that allows me and his mercy that takes me.